The love of a child protected from conception to the warmth of its parents arms has so much emotion and comfort. But when that child is torn out from human grip as a result of death, emotions are thrown into despair, depression, emptiness, and tears.
I can fall deep into a hole or I can choose to be lifted out of the river of tears with God's comfort and warmth and feel His light around me.
I know that only God can comfort me with the knowledge that He holds Ian and Gavin cuddled in His hands and I have to let go.
The pain is still here and will ALWAYS tug at my emotions. I will always feel two holes in my heart for them. I have learned that if I am to heal, I need to give my tears to God along with my two babies so that God can continue to work in my life and bring His light on each tear I shed.
I love you my babies and will be reunited wth you again someday!
6 comments:
My heart goes out to you and Geoff. I know it is painful for you guys. We are here for you and we love you guys. God Bless...
This post is beautiful. What a great reminder for me to trust God with my pain. Isn't it a beautiful image to see God holding our boys and to know that we will see them again one day. My prayer is that I will accept because I know I will never understand why. Sending prayers and hugs your way.
oh I am so sorry for you. But what an amazing passative outlook you have. You will be together as a family again some day and will never be torn apart.
I've always thought that the hardest trial would be to lose a child.......losing two? I can't even think about it. I'm so sorry that your babies are not here with you now, but your outlook is beautiful.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, even though they are painful. I can't wait to meet them when we get to Heaven! And thank God for Evan's strong will!
Brandi
I love you Jessica. I know there is so much left unspoken about your two boys. I know that you will meet your boys again one day.
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